6 weeks old

Xavier is 6 weeks old now! He is starting to stay away a little more and holding his head up great. He still gets a little lazy sometimes but he is doing so good and growing like a weed. It is getting close to his next doctor appointment and he is going to have to get shots. :( I hate when my kids get shots. I hate seeing them in pain and then how cranky they are after. But he has to have them so what can you do?  

It is time for baseball sign ups. They actually end on February 11th so I am hoping that I have my tax refund by then so I can pay for it. I am suppose to get it on the 1st but we will see. Anyway Keelan is really wanting to play this year so we took him to practice. He actually did better than I thought he would. Of course he has a lot to learn but I think he will end up being pretty good. The only thing is his behavior. He still throws fits when he doesn't get his way and I don't know how that will work out on the ball field. Hopefully this will help to to grow out of acting that way.

You got your judy chop and your ninji chop

Gavin is a BLACK BELT! So awesome and I am so proud of him. I cried when his teacher put his belt on him. It was so great to be able to watch and be apart of it. I didn't realize so much went into becoming a black belt. His test was about an hour long. I know he had to be exhausted. He is so smart and we are all so proud of him!

5 weeks and good grades

First things first my baby brought home great grades and is a AAA Achiever. He is so excited even though he gets this every grading period because he is so awesome! I am very proud of him. We just need to work on his reading some more so he can be on the honor roll again. Xavier is 5 weeks old today. He is getting big. He still hates his swing and tummy time. We will continue to work on that. I am not having very much luck with my milk supply. I am up to about 2 ounces total most of the time. Sometimes it is less sometimes more. But almost always 2 ounces. I am going to ask my doctor at my 6 week check up if there is something she can prescibe me to help. I have tried everything else. I have heard there is a medicine called reglan but it is suppose to make you really tired. I am tired enough already so I don't think that would be a good idea. We will see. It sucks so bad because I just want him to have what is best and it is my body's job to produce it and it isn't. Very frustrating!!! It is almost time for baseball and the boys are super excited about that. We are going to take them to the park soon to start practicing. Hopefully it will be a good season, but who knows. All the drama we had with football may follow since it is the same people. But Malique doesn't move up and all them do so we won't have to be around them hopefully! Oh and we met with the new company yesterday. They are keeping everyone here! I am so happy. I prayed hard for that. They said they are going to ask the owners about a pay raise for me since they are taking commissions. I won't know about that though until they come back in February. I am praying big though!

Hi Ho Hi Ho Back To Work I Go...

My first day back and it feels like I was never gone. I just slide right in there and pretty much picked up where I left off. I guess a month isn't really that long to be gone from work. I went home about 4 times today to check on my baby. I can't get into the habit of that though because I will want to stay there. So I have to only go home to take him the milk I pump. I am so blessed to have a job and a boss that is so understanding and flexible with me. I hope it stays that way because we found out today that our current management company lost the contract and a new management company will be taking over on March 1st. I could lose my job but I don't feel nervous or uneasy about the situation so I think I will be ok. The only thing is that they don't pay commissions and that is a huge part of my income and something that I count on the make ends meet. I don't make that much hourly so I will have to figure that out. I don't have to stay here even if they choose to keep me, but I will. I really do love working here and I am not a big fan of change. I like to be comfortable. I just hope they keep Keenan because he is like the best boss ever. We are suppose to meet with the new company of Wednesday of this week so hopefully I will find out more then.

ONE MONTH OLD

Wow does time fly by! Xavi got his social security card in the mail yesterday so is officially a real person now. And I can file my taxes. We are going to visit my mom today so we can get out of the house. Malique is hanging out with a friend. We miss him :( He stays to himself more now. I am hoping he gets out of that quickly and comes around us more. I love my little sidekick! Malique is my right hand man. He loves me as much as I love him. It was only me and him for a long time and he has adjusted well to our family getting bigger. I am so proud of him! He is smart, funny, and just an all around good kid. Hopefully Keelan will start behaving better here soon. And stop crying so much. I know he is only 3 well almost 4 but he cries over everything and we have got to get that corrected soon! Xavier still sleeps all the time and poops more than any kid I have ever met. All those diapers we had stockpiled before he was born are more than half way gone as well as the wipes. His diaper rash had finally gone away and hopefully never returns. I have been trying to do tummy time with him so he can start trying to hold his head up but he hates it. He just lays there and cries until you pick him up. I am going to cherish every moment because before I know it he will be running around everywhere not wanting me to hold him anymore.

4 weeks

He's getting big! Well not really he is actually about the same size...still fits into newborn clothes and diapers. But I think I am about to put away the newborn stuff and break out the 0-3 months. I am tired of looking at the newborn outfits. We don't have a lot because we figured he would outgrow it soon. I guess we were wrong. Not too much going on just doing the mommy thing.

3 weeks old

Yes it is true! My baby is 3 weeks old already. I can't believe I have to go back to work in a week. I am so thankful that I live where I work. So I just have to walk right down the parking lot. Malique is back at school now and it hasn't been as hard to get up as I thought it would be. I guess my mommy mode is finally kicking in. I am not having much luck with my milk supply at all I am only up to about an ounce total each pumping session. It is very discouraging and I really feel like I should give up sometimes. But my short term goal is 6 months and my real goal is 1 year. I think I can do it. Really it isn't that big of a deal when I have milk. I don't want to supplement with formula at all. But I don't have a choice right now. I can't starve the poor child! Keelan has been acting out some and hitting the baby when he cries. That is not going to work. Xavi went back to the doctor he is now 8 lbs. 13 oz and 20 inches long. and his belly button looks great now. The rash is not better at all it is actually probably worse. The prescribed some different cream and I am hoping that gets it taken care of. I feel so bad for him I know it has to hurt.

And a little comparison photo...crazy right!!! 

New Years and Mastitis

We had plans for weeks to go to a get together for New Years. Then New Years Eve I got sick! It started the night before with my left breast kind of hurting. I didn't really think anything of it I thought maybe I had a clogged duct. I tried to do everything recommended to unclog it but it just kept getting worse through out the night and I got no sleep. Then New Years eve morning I started getting chills and had extreme pain in my breast and red marks all over it. I googled everything and diagnosed myself with mastitis. I started taking amoxcicillan that I had left over from when I had step throat at the beginning of my pregnancy so I knew it was safe for him to still have breast milk. I was sink for 3 days until the antibiotic finally did it's job. I was so upset we didn't get to go to the party. I was really looking forward to getting out of the house. But Derrick was amazing through it and took such good care of the boys and me. My milk supply has went down to hardly nothing now and I have to try to get it back up. I had milk for days before this so I am hoping it won't take long. Anyway here is my little cutie in his New Years Tux...

Week 2

So Xavi is now 2 weeks old! Please let the time slow down. Why does is have to go so fast? He doesn't look like an Xavier at all to me so I can not get use to calling him that. I call him Xavi or My Baby :) He starting getting a diaper rash a couple days ago and I don't know what to do. None of my kids have ever had a diaper rash this early. I think he may have sensitive skin and I may need to go back to using diapers and wipes for sensitive skin. He went to the doctor today. The doctor said he looks very healthy but he has not gained any weight. He still weighs 8lbs. 4 oz. and the nurse said 19.5 inches long but that isn't possible. She must have measured wrong. The doctor gave him a prescription for the rash because he said it looks like a yeast infection and recommended he take vitamin d supplements since he is getting breast milk. He has to go back in a week for a weight check and to check on the rash. He is still very newborn. He doesn't try to hold his head up or even try to stay awake for any length of time. I am not rushing it at all though. It is almost time for Malique to go back to school and I don't even know how I am going to get up that early to get him ready and to school. I usually stay in the bed until 11:00am. But I have got to break that soon because it is also almost time for me to go back to work. :( Oh and his umbilical stump finally fell off! The doctor had to put some stuff on it to close it up the rest of the way. It has had some bloody discharge from it I am hoping that clears up soon. Here is my baby after his first real bath...with his fluffy hair do

Christmas

Christmas turned out to be so great! I wasn't so sure how it would go since I did all of my shopping after I had Xavier. They boys weren't excited coming down the stairs Christmas morning like I thought they would be. But they were excited once they started opening presents. I have no pictures of Christmas morning because Derrick recorded it instead of taking pictures! It was a really long but very good day spent with the one I love the most! And my aunt did a little newborn photo shoot for Xavi!

Mommy Mode

Our first week home was crazy and exhausting! The boys were so excited to have their baby brother. Keelan was a little confused at first. One of my friends had a baby about 2 months before me and Keelan kept saying "Where is Jessica? JoJo needs to go home." But he understands Xavier is here to stay. I had a hard time getting into my mommy mode. I didn't think it would be so hard to have 3. Maybe it is because I am older now. I don't know. But Malique was on Christmas break so we had all them home. They love him so much though and they want to help with everything. Xavier is such a good baby. He is rotten and doesn't like to be put down too much but that is ok I will hold him all day if I can. He hates the swing. I am so glad that was given to me and I didn't buy one! Of course he slept through mist of his first week in the world. But when he was awake we get to look at the most beautiful blue/gray eyes! I know they probably will not stay that way because Malique's were that color too at first and now they are brown. His first doctor appointment is the 29th.

XAVIER!!!!!

It has been 6 weeks since I have blogged! Not my intention but the way it worked out none the less. Needless to say this will be a LONG blog I am sure.

First things first my birth story...

The night of December 14th after I got off work I went home and started to prepare. As I have said before I saved a lot for that night so I would have something to do to pass the time and also because I was so worried that he would be stillborn. The first thing I did when I got home was lay in the bed and do a kick count. After Making sure he was doing well I started getting things together. We packed the bags, washed all of his newborn sized clothes, got his car seat ready, and washed the bottles. I went to bed around midnight and set my alarm for 4:30am. I didn't sleep too well because I was afraid I wouldn't hear the alarm or it wouldn't go off. Derrick didn't sleep at all. I woke up to the baby moving ALL OVER the place. It was so crazy because he had been very calm the past week and then that morning he was just going nuts like he knew it was time to get out of there. Derrick came and laid in the bed with me with his hand on my stomach. He got to experience out dancing baby too. He had felt him move before but nothing like this. I didn't bother to look at my phone because my alarm hadn't went off yet so I figured it wasn't time. After about 30 minutes I decided to look at it and it was 5:00am!!! I had set it for PM. I was thanking the Lord he woke me up. We were suppose to be at the hospital at 5:00 - 5:30am so we hurried and got dressed and headed to the hospital. We got there at about 5:30am. I had planned to pre register the Monday before when I was in the OB ER for high blood pressure but the nurse told me as many times as I had been in there I was already registered. We stopped at the admitting desk when we got there and of course I wasn't registered. LOL so that took about 20 minutes and then we headed up to L&D. They got us all set up in a room, took forever to start my IV because I hadn't had anything to eat or drink and my veins were no existent, and asked a million questions. Then it was time to wait until the lady before me had her baby. I thought we would be going into the OR at about 8:00am. I was wrong. At 8:30am the nurse came in to have me drink the alkaseltzer which I always throw up and this time was no different. at about 9:45am it was our turn. We went down to the smallest OR I had ever seen and they gave me my spinal. It didn't hurt at all and is the weirdest feeling. Then they brought Derrick in. I was so nervous! This entire time I was so scared I was going to lose him I could not wrap my head around the fact I was really about to have a baby. I couldn't imagine what he would look like or our life with him. I threw up like I do every time I have a c-section because my blood pressure bottoms out so low. It seemed to take forever because I have so much scar tissue. I kept asking Dr. Rodier questions. She said everything looked great. Then it was time to pull him out. It felt like they were trying to pull my boob out from the inside. Very weird feeling and hard to explain.Xavier came out screaming and Derrick looked over the curtain thing and said he had a lot of hair. The he held my precious baby over the curtain and said "Look at this chunk!" Then they took him over to the little bed thing where they clean him off. He didn't need much cleaning though. He didn't have any blood or what white stuff on him. He was perfect! The first thing out of my mouth was "He looks just like Keelan!" I just kept thanking Jesus for him and how perfect and healthy he was. They brought him over too me and he was breathing a little squeaky and kinda made me nervous but they said it was normal. God he is just so perfect I can't even explain how much love I have for him. Derrick and the nurse took Xavier out to the nursery while they finished with me. I asked Dr. Rodier if his cord was wrapped around his neck or anything and she said no and that she would have told me if it was. This was the main thing I was worried about while I was pregnant with him. I worried about him being stillborn from a cord accident. But he was perfect and there was nothing to worry about. She tied my tubes (almost forgot one) and got me all stitched back up. I felt so great. Oh crap I can't believe I forgot this... Xavier Barrett McDade was born at 9:38am weighing 8lbs. 8oz 20 inches long. I didn't think he would be 8 lbs. I know they had predicted he would be bigger but I just didn't think he would be. Then again I couldn't even believe I was really having a baby. It took forever to get a post partum room and I didn't get to see him until we got in one. I was going crazy! I wanted my baby. It is just a strange feeling being away from your baby right after birth. You have spent 9 months with them inside you and then to be separated is hard. We finally got up to a room and I got my baby. I know I have said this so much already, but he is so perfect. He is so beautiful and amazing. I just wanted to look at him forever. I'll wrap this up. My hospital stay was fine I recovered so well and hardly had any pain. We got to go home a day early. Best recovery ever. The only thing I had problems with was gas pains. When we left the hospital Xavier weighed 8 lbs 4 oz.